My Diary - My Journey With God. My walk with God is not in any particular order. I just write as I am led. I pray someone will be blessed.
Even though my website started in 2011. I found it hard to write about Myself. A few weeks ago the Lord reminded of Rahab the Harlot. He said, I never said how many men she slept with, I just said she was a harlot. The Lord reminded me again today of Rahab, so in this diary I will share what the Lord wants me to do.
I woke up one night back in October 2013, grab my pad and my pen and started writing. I knew it was the LORD speaking, and I cannot go back. He is teaching me how to love myself and others better! How about You?
Why? Why Go Back:
Why go back to a love that breaks your heart and steals your joy.
Why go back to a love that never understood how to love you from the start.
Why go back to a love that uses and abuses you
Why go back to a love that never understand you and never will
Why go back to a love that causes you pain
Why go back to a love that frustrates and angers your soul.
Why go back to a love that destroys your self esteem
Why go back to a love that questions your every move
Why go back to a love that makes you feel like your heart has stopped
Why go back to a love that captures your body and not your mind
Why go back to a love that can never catch up to you
Why go back to a love that makes you promises it cannot keep
Why go back to a love that disrespects and talk down to you
Why go back to a love that has never fulfilled your love
Why go back to a love that cannot satisfy your love
Why go back to a love that keeps you searching
Why go back to a love you know your heart did not receive
Why go back to a love you do not and cannot love
Why go back to a love that is like a wild beast - you are always afraid to go near
Why go back to a love that keeps you like a prisoner
Why go back to a love that cannot and will not allow you to fly.
Why go back to a love that steals your joy and robs your hope
Why go back to a love that causes you to steal and hide
Why go back to a love that is ashamed of you.
Why go back to a love that keeps you lying to yourself.
Why go back to a love that uses, abuses and rapes you.
Why go back to a love that cannot love you for who you are
Why go back to a love that forces you to change who you really are.
Why go back to a love that body-guards your very soul for selfish reasons
Why go back to a love that makes you promises it cannot keep
Why go back to love that only wants you for selfish pleasures
Why work your fingers to the bone for selfish love…..
The sun rises in mornings and sets at nights.
If we want to see the sunrise and the sunset
All we have to do is to position ourselves
The sun will rise and set without us ever having to lift a finger.
So it is with love - It is freely given
True love flows freely like a river
Stop looking for love in all the wrong places, and in too many faces
Why go back to the love of the ordinary…..
When JESUS has displayed such love and affection for the world to see.
Love is very patient - It does not know how to rush
Love suffers long - It only knows how to wait
Love is kind - It is ever trusting
Love envies not - It is so pure
Love does not vaunt itself - It has no reason to show off
Love is not easily puffed up - It does not know how to manipulate
Love does not behave itself unseemly - It respects and gives you honor
Love does not seek to have its own - It is free, it does not know how to charge
Love is not easily provoked - It hates being selfish
Love thinks no evil - It keeps no record of wrongs
Love does not rejoice in iniquity - But in the truth
Love bears all things - It takes your heart into consideration
Love believes all things - It thinks about you first
Love hopes in all things - It sees the good in you
Love endures all things - It wants the best for you
Love never fails - It is a consistent light that shines even in pain.
When Mary found this love - she wipes His feet with her hair.
The woman by the well ran and told it to all her other lovers……
This love teaches us how to love…….This love is JESUS.
If you don't have this love….Then I'm afraid you have - no love at all….
May GOD guide you all to your true destiny in JESUS Name -Amen
Let's Talk JESUS: No secrets: Jesus knows all about us: The first step to knowing and loving Jesus is to accept him as Lord and Savior. His word declares in Hebrews 12:2…That he is the Author and Finisher of our faith.
If you are confused about your faith, please remember that getting to know Jesus is not complicated we have only one Lord… but may religions. We are not here to seek religion, we are here to seek Jesus.
Jesus said in his word: Matthew 11:28-30. Come unto me, all ye that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me, For I am meek and lowly in heart, and you shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.
John 14:27. Peace I leave with you my peace I give unto you not as the world gives, give I unto you, let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
Hebrews 13:5. I will never leave you nor forsake you. Without Christ in our lives we are helpless and sinful:
We were all born in sin . Psalm 51:5. Surely I have been a sinner from birth, sinful from the time my mother conceived me.
We all like sheep have gone astray: Isaiah 53:6. We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each one of us has turned to our own way: and the Lord has laid on him the iniquity of us all.
We all have sinned through Adam. Romans 5:12. Therefore, just as sin has entered the world through one man, and death through sin, and in this way death came to all men, because all sinned.
Romans 5:19. For just as through the disobedience of one man, the many were made sinners, so also through obedience of the one man the many will be made righteous.
Jews and Gentiles alike are sinners. Romans 3:9-12. What shall we conclude then? Are we any better? Not at all! We have already made the charge that Jews and Gentiles alike are all under sin. As it is written: “There is no one righteous, not even one; there is no one who understands, no one who seeks God. All have turned away, they have together become worthless; there is no one who does good, not even one.”
Romans 3:22-24. There is no difference for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.
We all are like lost sheep without Jesus. Luke 15:3-7. We are like the prodigal son. Luke 15:11-24. Jesus died for us: John 10:11, 14, 15. I am the good Shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep. I am the good shepherd; I know my sheep and my sheep know me just as the Father knows me and I know the Father and I lay down my life for the sheep.
All who receive Jesus by faith will be saved. John 1:12. Yet all who received him to those who believed in his name he gave the right to become children of God.
John 8:31-36. Through Jesus we have all been set free. Jesus spoke to those who believed in him. If you abide in my word and hold fast to my teachings and live in accordance with them, you are truly my disciples. And you will know the truth and the truth will set you free. Everyone who sins is a slave to sin. Now a slave has no permanent place in the family, but a son belongs to it forever. So if the Son sets you free, you are free indeed.
Without Christ we are without hope: Ephesians 2:12,13. Remember that at that time “before salvation in Christ” we were separate from Christ. Excluded from citizenship in Israel and foreigners to the covenants of the promise, without hope and without God in the world. But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far way have been brought near through the blood of Christ.
1 Peter 2:21-22: For even hereunto were ye called: because Christ also suffered for us, leaving us an example, that ye should follow his steps: 22 Who did no sin, neither was guile found in his mouth:
The only way that we can become perfect is to follow a perfect God. Who is your GOD? There were days when I really needed my Saviour and He was always there for me, blessing me in ways sometimes hard to explain.
I must admit that many of these songs listed below carried me through the rough days of my pregnancy. I owe it all to Jesus. I will try to share as many as I can. Thanks to these many artists whose songs over the years has been a blessing not only to me, but to countless others. I pray GOD's richest blessings on each and every artist that sings, just for the Glory of GOD.
Please note: These songs were a blessing to me as I sat many days alone in my room with no one to talk to but Jesus Christ my Saviour. I copied them and put them in one place to make it easier for anyone who enjoys these kinds of music. God Bless.
Some of these songs still bring tears to my eyes,even today, just thinking back on how good my GOD has been to me.
Don't allow anyone to manipulate your decision when it comes to serving Christ:
Thanks to my praying Sister Pee who was my mentor & still is.
Have you ever felt God's spirit move upon you so strong….you just know it had to be God.
When I was much younger, I was sitting in Church one Sunday…I can remember, as if it was just yesterday.
After the sermon the Preacher was doing the altar call, I still remember clearly, I was lifted up out of my seat, my whole body was thrust forward…..I did not feel any hands on me, my whole body just shot up and I immediately held on to the bench in front of me, I felt like my whole body was shaking.
I remember thinking did anyone see this!
No one said a word so I sat back down.
Looking back what kept me from going to the altar then, was just friends that I knew was hanging out in the back of the Church.
And funny enough now, I can't even remember who they were, but for one split second I allowed the devil to manipulate my decision to serve Christ as a young girl.
I still regret it to this day….But thank God for grace and mercy. He gave me not only a second chance but a third chance.
Even though I did not move to the altar that Sunday, eventually I did give my life to the Lord and got baptized as a young girl.
The difference between now and then…. as I said before I gave my life to Christ but I did not understand how to give Him my heart too. (As I write this I am beginning to cry and I don’t even know why).
I must confess that I backslid and was in sin for some-time. While in sin I was longing for Jesus but did not know how to come home…..Sounds familiar - the Prodical son!
I am also thinking maybe, because now I have gotten older and hopefully a little wiser and looking back over the journey of my life I can now see the difference.
Giving Jesus my life and not my heart brought many lonely days, even though I thought I was having fun. The only way to enjoy the real Peace that comes from knowing Jesus, is to allow him to direct my life and it starts with giving him my whole heart.
This is what Proverbs 3:5-6 has to say…..
Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
6. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
My first encouragement to anyone is….Do not curse where you are, it is the stepping stone to where you need to go.
My son is now 4 years old. I never thought in my wildest imagination that four years later I would still be home not working. That was not what I had imagined for myself.
But this morning as I dropped my son off at Pre-K I started talking to one of his previous teacher, and she used these words "this is the best time to invest in your kids" and I added, "because when they get older, they don't need us as much".
On my way home the Lord reminded me of Moses and his mother Jochebed. The scenario around Moses life was that he should have been dead by mans request. But concerning Moses life that was not the request from GOD…In spite of all that took place Moses life was spared, and most of all, his own mother was the one who raised him up and poured GOD into him so he would never forget about his forefathers GOD.
I am also reminded of Hannah, she also took the time to make sure Samuel walked in the ways of GOD.
As I thought about my life I started looking back and I clearly remember the prayer that I prayed after having gone through three miscarriages. I was hurt, angry, frustrated and most of all thinking time is running out for me, I was no longer in my 20's or my 30's. GOD is still a miracle working GOD.
Back to my prayer, I asked the Lord not to let me get pregnant again unless he was going to give me a child that would serve Him throughout Eternity. As I write, I am beginning to understand more clearly the path that GOD has chosen for my life.
For my son to serve GOD, then just like Jochebed and Hannah I am required as his mother to take the time to point him to GOD and pour GOD into him. GOD has answered my prayer, it's not more money that I need to furnish my son's needs…… but more of GOD so I can continue to pour God's word into him while he is still young.
This scripture says it best…Proverbs 22:6…Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.
May God continue to bless all my readers - double fold. In Jesus Name...Amen